Pregnancy Status: 37 weeks, 4 days
Currently: Listening to the birds chirp on a quiet, foggy summer morning
It’s Father’s Day today. And I can’t help but feel immense gratitude for my husband and the man that he has evolved to be since we found out we were having a baby. I never realized what the promise and opportunity of new life can bring to people – for my husband and I, being that we’re in our first year of marriage, it’s brought a lot of… hmm how do I put this lightly. Communication. 😉 A lot of not seeing eye to eye, coming at things from different angles, taking our own learned sets of experiences and trying to fuse the two together to make sense of it all. But at the end of the day, in moments where I wince in pain from my ever-expanding pelvis or the times where I wake up in the middle of the night with an unfathomably sharp cramp that burns all too deep, he’s always there. Holding me up on a birthing ball, encouraging me to breathe, massaging my leg or simply and ever-so-gently asking if I’m ok. Pregnancy hormones are no joke. I know I haven’t been easy. And yet, he somehow helps me laugh. Encourages me to sing away the frustration or envelops me with a hug, even though I know I may not (especially in that moment) deserve it.
Our 1 year anniversary is coming up in 2 months, and I feel like in this past year, I have had 3 years with him. The depth of our anxiety and the relief to discover that it will all be ok (did I tell you the previa resolved?!?!?), the immense joy and gratitude we recognize and speak often about around our dog, who we also call our “beautiful son”, the candor and sweet vulnerability we have when we’re talking about our deepest fears of being a parent or that we may not be cutting it as a partner. It’s unfettered, raw, vulnerable, and so honest and true.
As I enter into these last few weeks, my gratitude and recognition for these moments, these experiences, these memories… bring me so much comfort and joy. I feel so lucky to have my husband, someone I know will be the most incredibly kind, loving, authentic, funny, and brilliant father. His love for our family is already unmatched, and I cannot wait for our lives to begin yet again when our baby girls comes into this world.
Happy Father’s Day to all the wonderful Dad’s out there! May your day be filled with laughter, little (and big) moments of joy and the tightest hugs you could possibly imagine.